HOW TO DISAPPEAR By Gillian McAllister


Wow, what an emotional rollercoaster ride, I found myself In tears at the decisions the family had to make. I know I am feeling emotional at the moment due to lockdown etc. But this had me gripped.

Zara had witnessed a young homeless male, Jamie murdered, she had decided to give evidence at the trial of the two young men charged with the murder, Luke who was destined to be a premier league footballer, and Mal who was on the same path, both played for the same junior league. Zara was labelled Girl A her evidence was being given hidden behind a closed door and her identity hidden. Unfortunately on the day of the trial under cross examination, Zara had changed her testimony slightly. This meant the charges were thrown out. Luke had lost his chance of being a professional footballer having been on remand for 12 months.

Everything changed for Zara and the family after that day in court. A group were threatening to go after Zara, for revenge. Her mother Lauren and stepfather Aiden were all offered Witness protection, the problem was Aiden had a daughter Poppy from his first marriage and going into protection would mean leaving her behind as well as his mother. How do you make that choice? Lauren also had to leave her sister and friends behind. After discussing it Aiden couldn’t leave his daughter and Lauren understood that as if the roles had been reversed she knew she could have never left Zara behind.

Imagine having to leave everyone and everything you live behind, and having to start from scratch. Learning new names, new information, maybe for someone young it’s easier although not leaving friends behind obviously. But as an adult, when you have gone by that name and everything for so long, it would be easy to slip up. No contact, no social media. Leaving the man you love. The range of emotions covered was well balanced, and so believable.

I really enjoyed this story, the emotions felt so raw and real, as they try to stick to the rules, which isn’t always easy in days of social media. Filled with some twists and turns that will have you on the edge of your seat, biting your fingernails. An engrossing read. How far would you go to protect your child? The difficulties that Poppy and Zara go through, as they are just 16 years old almost adults, almost ready to start their lives. Although Poppy has the added responsibility of looking after her mum who has MS, at times she resents this, other times she accepts it.

Would you just let your family go like that? Or would you try and solve the problem? Try and get the people responsible?

A definite ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ out of ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ read for me, I hope others enjoy this as much as I did.

Thank you to #netgalley and #PenguinUK-Michael Joseph for an eARC of this book in exchange for an honest, fair and unbiased review.


You can run, you can hide, but can you disappear for good?

Lauren’s daughter Zara witnessed a terrible crime. But speaking up comes with a price, and when Zara’s identity is revealed online, it ours a target on her back.

The only choice is to disappear.

To keep Zara safe, Lauren will give up everything and everyone she loves, even her husband.

There will be no goodbyes. Their pasts will be rewritten, New names, new home, new lives.

The rules are strict for a reason. They are being hunted. One mistake – a text, an Instagram like – could bring their old lives crashing into the new.

They can never assume someone isn’t watching, waiting.

As Lauren will learn, disappearing is easy. Staying hidden is harder….

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